Friday, May 27, 2011

pawn...
















"When the pawn hits the conflicts he thinks like a king
What he knows throws the blows when he goes to the fight
And he'll win the whole thing 'fore he enters the ring
There's no body to batter when your mind is your might
So when you go solo, you hold your own hand
And remember that depth is the greatest of heights
And if you know where you stand, then you know where to land
And if you fall it won't matter, cause you'll know that you're right."

Self/ graffiti/ unknown/ unknown/ Beige de Monde (underwater test)/ Poem by Fiona Apple

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Thursday, May 26, 2011

Om... Golden...

I'm feeling a little sentimental and Om... I took these photos in and around Bangkok in 2006 however the quality looks frustratingly 80's. But retro is fun so it's all good. "Ommmm..."






















© Juliette Gillies

Saturday, May 14, 2011

reality...



Well we have settled reasonably well into our new apartment. Not without a multitude of problems of course. It's smaller and colder than our last place but has wonderful light in the daytime. I'm hoping the next 6 months run smoother than the last however we have already started looking for somewhere to buy and it has stirred up a menagerie of emotions. It is a big commitment. Not just financially but psychologically. To be able to say "This is mine. This is where I live. This is now my home." Renting has no permanence and there is an odd comfort in that. The freedom to be able to pick up and move on is very attractive to me. Typical free spirited Aquarian...

As settled as I am, there is still that irritating, serotonin depleting voice in the back of my head reminding me that I am achieving nothing and not realising any of my goals or potential. It certainly is hard to be filled with dreams of greatness when you are in reality very mediocre. Still waiting for that lightening bolt. Wanting is not enough...

On the flip side I am back in the city, all my clothes are out of storage and I am surrounded by the ones I love. My days are filled with writing, cooking, cleaning :(, hugging and laying in the sun. My favourite words are sushi, coffee, DVD, bourbon, "Hi" and sleep. Change will come soon my darlings but not today.

smoother (comparative of smooth) Adjective: Even and regular; free from perceptible projections or indentations.
Adverb: In a way that is without difficulties: "the course of true love never did run smooth".

happiness
A state of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy.

permanence Noun: The state or quality of lasting or remaining unchanged indefinitely.

Images from E4's "Skins".

Sunday, May 1, 2011

empty...





So we went from room to room
Turning the lights out one by one
And walked hand and hand through the hallway
One more time with heavy hearts
Empty but together.


© Juliette Gillies